Here it comes, the moment when

You know you’ll never be the same again

Power chord, see the light

You found your place in the world tonight

I started this blog when I was moving to Ireland back in October 2013. I started studying Service, Hospitality and Tourism Management in September 2013 as on online student. The reason for me choosing to be an online student was because I wanted to move to Ireland. And because I was still a Danish student I could take my student grants with me to Ireland – and that is what I did. All this I have already wrote about on the blog so I am not going to go over it again. However what I want to say is I DID IT! I graduated yesterday and can now call myself an AP graduate in Service, Hospitality and Tourism Management. The last few months have been tough and I was so sure that I was going to fail. I even contacted the school about what I was going to do in case that would have been the outcome and I had actually already accepted the fact that I was going to be an uneducated woman for the rest of my life. I say the rest of myself, because I cannot face anymore studying. But it didn’t quite turn out that way and instead I am going to be an educated woman for the rest of my life.

The feeling I can’t quite describe, but it feels nice to know for sure that a new chapter has finally started. I have been waiting for this for so long and maybe that was the reason that I in the end just didn’t believe in myself. I was so close to the finish line when I lost all hope and just wanted to drop out. But as it is right now I am so happy that I didn’t just give up, because the outcome was way better than I could have ever expected. And I think what I should have learnt from this is to keep believing in myself and don’t give up. Giving up is way too exhausting, I think it would only have been a matter of time before I would have broken down.

But a burden has been lifted off my shoulders and I know now that things can only get better from now on, because now I can finally start working on getting a proper life. Being on student grants is not funny and it sets limits where you wouldn’t want to have any. But hopefully now I can expand my limits and I can continue dreaming about going to Australia next year and maybe even go through with it. The only thing that I want badly right now is to look for jobs and send out applications, but I can’t because I already have a contract for a few months, which I am also really excited about. Job hunting will have to wait till the end of the year!!

In May I started as an event volunteer at headspace Denmark in Aalborg, where I will help built up an event team and I am really excited about it. We have had a few meetings so far, but unfortunately I have been working most of June and am busy for the next few months, so I will not be able to participate as much as I want to. But I am really excited to volunteer for a course like headspace, because I think the concept is so great and needed among the younger people.

This Wednesday I participated in my first official run, Alt for Damernes Løb 2015. I signed up for it in March when I was running regularly and thought that it would be good motivation to keep running. And my motivation was on track until the middle of April where I was going to cycle 110 KM with my friend. Unfortunately we had a bit of miscommunication on the trip and ended up crashing. I hurt my shoulder really bad and it has actually taken around three to four weeks to get over it completely. And then I got a tattoo so I had to put running off for a week as well. So when I participated in the 10 KM run I had only been out twice in a month. But everything was great as I even beat my old 10K record. It was a lot of fun and it’s definitely not the last time I am participating in anything like that.

So many things have been going on and on Saturday I am going on a runaway vacation with some friends for two weeks and I am really looking forward to it. I have so many things at the moment to look forward to that it is hard not to smile when you think about it. And especially now that my final exam is no longer blocking my view!

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Frodo looked at Sam rather startled, half expecting to see some outward sign of the odd change that seemed to have come over him. it did not sound like the voice of the old Sam Gamgee that he thought he knew. But it looked like the old Sam Gamgee sitting there, except that his face was unusually thoughtful.

‘Do you feel any need to leave the Shire now – now that your wish to see them has come true?’ he asked.

‘Yes, sir- I don’t know how to say it, but after last night I feel different. I seem to see ahead, in a kind of way. I know we are going to take a very long road, into darkness; but I know I can’t turn back. It isn’t to see Elves now, nor dragons, nor mountains, that I want – I don’t rightly know what I want: but I have something to do before the end, and it lies ahead, not in the Shire. I must see it through, sir, if you understand me.’

Almost a year ago, the 22^nd to be exact, I moved to Mullingar in Ireland. I moved to explore new heights and to fulfil a dream that I had had for a long time. The feeling of sleeping my last night in Denmark before my move is still very close to me and it feels like it was yesterday. The excitement and nervousness is something that you will probably never forget, because jumping out from a cliff (at least that is what it felt like) made the adrenaline pump so badly. Also just moving when you don’t know anybody or anything is scary in itself especially when you are in the situation I was in – with no connections to anyone in Ireland. Jump on the plane and see how it goes, that’s the best advice I can give.

Unfortunately I didn’t get to live in Ireland for that long, because of some issues with my student grants. My stay which I was expecting to last for at least two years were cut down to only five months. I chose to leave even though I might have been able to make the money last. But later on it was the right decision that I took, because I would have been forced to move back to Denmark anyway. In June we found out that my mother has cancer, so there was no way that I would have stayed in Ireland and I was extremely happy that I had already moved back home when we found out.

 “I wish it need not have happened in my time” said Frodo. “So do I” said Gandalf “and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide”

I also love my new flat a lot and I am really happy about where I live in Denmark at the moment even though I haven’t been able to stay there for long. The thing is that since August I have been travelling around with a company that arranges Oktoberfests around Europe as part of my studies. So far we’ve been five weeks in Sweden, one in Denmark and four in London and one in Birmingham. We still have one week in Manchester and then two weeks in Italy before we finish this tour. And I even got to go to Edinburgh for three nights as well. I enjoy travelling around and doing work like this a lot, and the best thing about the fact that I enjoy it a lot is that this is what I have always wanted to do with my life. So for me I am in a satisfying state of my life since I have realised that I don’t just dream about this kind of work, I also like it very much, which is one step in the right direction. However this job means that you see a lot of hotel rooms, mud, rain and drunk people and you don’t really see anything of the cities you visit, because there’s almost always something to be done. But it’s okay that you don’t get to do any sightseeing because in the end you’re there to work.

This year has had its ups and downs and a lot of adventures, but by far the best thing that happened was William, my nephew who was born in July; just a few days before I had to go on tour!

After the event in Millwall Park, London

Canary Wharf, London

Edinburgh Castle, Scotland