Am I brave enough?
Am I strong enough?
To follow the desire
That burns from within
To push away my fear
To stand where I'm afraid
I have a mind that is changing directions all the time. And this
year I have changed my mind regarding my future three times. I mean it’s
sometimes just such a tough decision and you don’t really want to be making the
wrong one, but I guess you just gotta do what you gotta do – no regrets. I went
from not wanting to keep studying to wanting to keep studying and my latest
decision is that I don’t want to study any further. I’m sick of it and it’s
hanging far out of my throat. I think that this time I want a life, but what
kind of life is it exactly that I want? I know that. I want to be a seasonal
worker and that might not sound like dreams in many people’s eyes, but it is in
mine as it will give me the space I need for my own interests as travelling and
writing, and I’ll not be held up anywhere specific. This year I’ll be working
one month at a fish factory in my home town. It’s my sixth season there and
then three and a half month as a site-manager at the company where I did my
internship, which I am very excited about as it is in my field of study. So
that is four and a half months of work already settled. So how amazing could it
be if I could do it like this every year and then just find another or two
companies to work for during Winter and Spring? I wouldn’t even need an
apartment and when there’s no work I could go travelling. Why should you not
follow your dreams when there is nothing holding you back? I’m free as a bird
and the world is so big and I want to see it. My plan of going to Australia is
still ongoing – I am going next year and it’ll be the craziest thing I have
ever done. One thing was to move to Ireland, but Australia is a bit further
away.
The only thing that is really stopping people from going
anywhere is the way they look upon themselves. They don’t think they are brave
enough to do it and it’s a shame because everyone is capable, you just got to
jump the gun. I’ve heard it a lot of times it’s
brave of you to do this. Especially when I moved to Ireland. So many people
told me that they thought it was very brave of me to leave everything for the
unknown and that they would never be able to do so. But to me it’s not so much
about being brave it is more about what I have to do. Sometimes you just got
to close your eyes and walk.
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